...oh, biology...

 Again, I'm sitting. But this time not in the lobby but in an empty classroom. Well, tehnically, it's not quite empty. There's another girl here, but she's sleeping (there was a party for someone's birthday yesterday or something, so they partied 'til morning).
 Oh, look, she woke up. And got out without saying anything. Well, isn't that nice! - haha, just now, Karmen walked in and she read what I wrote and she's not quite sure if the last sentence is sarcasm or not. It is.
 Ah, who am I kidding? I can't write right now. I don't have anything in my head. Besides the fear of biology - oral testing in two hours =/...

...why are you so boring???...

  Just sitting in the lobby. Watching the people pass by me, each of them with their own thoughts and concerns. Some of them think I'm mentally deranged, others don't even notice me, or they just don't pay attention to me, considering that I am, in fact, a totaly boring person.

 Well, I probably wouldn't declare myself as a boring person, but it looks like everybody seems to think so, so I guess it's true. 

 But let's just stop guessing for a while and consider the possibility that I'm not boring. Why do I believe I'm not boring? I admit, I may be boring for a lot, probably the majority of the people I know and even for those I don't. But there are also a few, okey, three persons that actually find me quite fun to have around. Or at least I hope they do. Let's say, for argument's sake, they do. Gosh, why must I always be so insecure?! It's so annoying.

 Come to think of it, I believe there's no such thing as a boring person. There are people who you find boring and there are people, who find you boring. But there's always someone who will find you interesting. Hopefully.

 If we take me, for example: I don't go out every weekend to get myself drunk and hook up with some random guy. Most of my peers think that's just weird. And boring. They immediately mark you as a non-outgoing person and most of them don't even take time to get to know you better. If they did, they'd  found that yes, you don't go out every Saturday night but so what? It doesn't mean you're not interesting. It doesn't mean that you never go out and that you never got drunk in your entire life. It just means that you have other things to do. That you're interested in other stuff then passing out in some bar after a 'wild night' of dancing and drinking. Maybe you prefer a quiet night at home, alone in your room watching a movei or reading a book or whatever.

 The problem is, that no one dares to say that out loud. No one wants to admit that they spend Friday nights alone, because it's considered to be lame. And don't even think of studying!! That would be just unforgivable! So lame! So nerdy!

 So we've come to nerds. I simply can't understand why would that be an insult.

"Saying 'I notice you're a nerd' is like saying, 'Hey, I notice that you'd rather be intelligent than be stupid, that you'd rather be thoughtful than be vapid, that you believe that there are things that matter more then the arrest record of Lindsay Lohan. Why is that?' In fact, it seems to me that most contemporary insults are pretty lame. Even 'lame' is kind of lame. Saying 'You're lame' is like saying 'You walk with a limp.' Yeah, whatever, so does 50 Cent, and he's done all right for himself." – John Green

 So, long story short,*

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*and then the bell rang and I had to stop

...just a quick explanation...

 It's not like I expect that anyone will actually read this, but still, I think I should say something in the beggining of all this. Although I don't know what. 'Cause it feels like I'm talking to myself. Or writing to myself. Whatever. But still...here are some things that you, my imaginary reader, should know:
 1. English is not my first language so I apologize in advance for all the mistakes I'll make.
 2. I don't know what I'll write about nor how often. Here's the thing: I sometimes think about stuff and feel the urge to write it somewhere. So I scribble things in my notebooks at school or just on any piece of paper that I can find. Usually, later I just throw 'my thoughts' away, because...well, I don't really know why, but I'm always sorry later, 'cause I can't remember exactly what I was thinking, the points I was making, etc. So I'll just copy the things I write to here (no corrections, no adding things even if it's not finnished, nothing), so I'll be able to go through them whenever I like.
 3. That explains the name of the blog, pensieve. If you've read Harry Potter. If you hadn't...you should.* Seriously.
 4. About my user name, lookingforanabundanceofpapertowns, it's a mixture of 3 book titles, all by John Green. If you don't know him, you should go check him out. He's awesome.
 5. Nah, there's no 5., that's all I have to say..I think.
  So now I'll just go and copy the stuff I wrote today...but that'll be another post.

Don't forget to be awesome


*That's all I'm going to say, Karmen**, that's all I'm going to say.
** I don't know if you'll ever read this though, I still haven't decided if I'll tell you about it.